I decide not to love her

Ten years, I only do two things, such as love him and he loves.
Christmas Eve, I give him to send a text message to him, to a call Joe's girls, often invite her to dinner, buy her flowers, stay with her, put your own evil to give her the money.
I'm Joe. He is my age of 16 men of knowledge.
In college, I went to before him, to be very serious and say to him, you wait for me? Four years later I married you. He sighed, he said: Joe, you are too young, not me before, just want to wait too long, most is not belong to oneself.
If he'd quickly took a wife, and a huge, he and wedding bride appear very beautiful, like a pair of used to theater props.
He married that day I ran to the botanical garden, kind of a tree. I believe that as long as the tree lives, one day there will be many leaves round into green shade, I also believe that as long as I live, will one day be with him, I've never give up the love him.
My tree soon survive, ten years later, I love life, and he began to say to me love, however has born of the emotions we face his death the meantime, marriage, but their affair.
Birthday last year, he took me to the sun, and the sun bay bay diving far away, it seems only he and I, a man and a woman, hand shake hands 12 meters water depth dive. There is the sea blue, gray smoke general slightly ripples. The tip of a light lingered on white, dazzling, as the most faithful coral. In a a glowing green beside the sea anemone, I pick up to a grain of shells, put in as we clam together hand in the heart and hold on tight, can't let go. This life also only and him, will hold can't let go. So
I found that the shore of thin thin small seashells actually very sharp in my hand, a few finely cut, and article in the hand of fate grain mixed together, helter-skelter hurts.
He asked me for dinner, point out a 10 years old Baltic. Fish eyes are very black very round, like a grain of simple seeds. Suddenly not move chopsticks, remembered I met him also have 10 years, 10 years to do only two things: love him and he love. It now seems business as usual, but has completely changed.
From the sun back bay, I always wanted to leave him, because I've been without him.
And he still carrying people meet, contact phone call from a text messages. He received my message will soon reply, he said: I want to Joe, all my money is evil. The next day he gave me a big envelope, filled with his evil money. He let me to buy a New Year gift, then wait for him to come.
I go to the mall, the most expensive to buy a pair of shoes in the most expensive there, wearing it didn't take long before they tired, find a place to sit down and wait for him. I suddenly feel thin. Be very cool breeze through waves, I finally knew can't wait. He said, will have to wait too long, most is not belong to oneself. Like this pair of shoes, and he is expensive, but always go far away.